Lamentations 3:22-23

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.

Lamentations 3:22-23

One day at a time, that is the key. I've tied myself in anxious knots all week feeling like I needed to find a solution that would make everything feel better. It felt like a clock was ticking and I needed the answer now, like there was a deadline and if I didn't make it all hope was lost. 

I knew that a lot of what I was feeling towards work was irrational, and I knew that a lot of that was down to the projection of my guilt over losing Grace. I knew in my head that God provides but my heart was elsewhere and, having not been able to control what happened to Grace, I was desperate to pull what I could control into line.

We've spent a lot of time watching the TV this past week and one of the films Owen put on was Soul Surfer. If you haven't seen it or heard of it, check out the trailer below and it will fill you in:

There is a scene in the film where Bethany's youth pastor is talking about seeing things from another perspective. When we watched the film the other night it didn't resonate. But today, I found myself thinking about it. And I realised that my perspective has changed today. Before, my thoughts were completely occupied with the bigger picture, I couldn't handle the thought of work because I was thinking of it long term. But then I realised that this week I have no day longer than 4 hours. When I think of each little 4 hour work day, things feel a lot more manageable. 

It doesn't mean that I'm not still considering change in the long term. And it doesn't mean that suddenly everything will now be fine. But if I can take each day one at a time I am pretty sure I can get through these next few weeks and months. I'm going to make a point of reading these verses from Lamentations every morning. I'm going to make a point of absorbing their truths and I'm going to step out into the world knowing that I don't need to be strong, because He is strong and He carries me.